I had the blood tests on Monday to see if I can have the chemotherapy. There is a part of me that wants them to find I have a strange White Blood Cell count, or a rampaging infection, or am anaemic, just so I can delay the treatment. However, I know I am none of the above so I find out tomorrow when I am to start having chemotherapy.
On Tuesday I have a medical wonderland day. I see the orthopod in the early evening about my foot after the operation whereupon I will mention to him that I still have no sensation around the scar or below it and I will say how much it hurts. At lunchtime I am seeing the substance misuse people at Plummer Court which I am scared about. It is only for an assessment but I am scared they will either make too much out of it or dismiss me. I am also terrified that they’ll take one look at me and my background and jump to a stereotypical conclusion that I’m “not the sort of girl who has a drug problem”.
We’ll see.
Sorry this is so short but just can’t be bothered writing at the moment. Everything just seems a little too much effort.
Ruth
June 8, 2008 at 11:35 am
Hey, just remember to take care of yourself…
June 8, 2008 at 4:23 pm
Never mentioned the folks at Plummer Court before.
Hope it goes well.
Take care
June 8, 2008 at 9:46 pm
Hi, i have just found your blog and read throgh all the archives. A very interesting read. Goodluck with your appointments
June 11, 2008 at 7:48 am
hope it goes well; treatment’s important.
June 11, 2008 at 9:10 pm
Take care bird.
June 13, 2008 at 9:07 am
Just wanted to reiterate everyone else’s comments and wish you the best and hope you take care. Come back soon when you feel like it.
June 15, 2008 at 11:21 pm
Best of Luck with the future. Your blog is very moving and has its own stylistic writing. I’m sure you could get a publisher for your writing.
Your medical experiences sound horrendous. I hope that you have a fantastic outcome.
Tom