I am no longer on olanzapine, I was eating far too much and gaining too much weight. I mentioned this to my psych and he changed me to quetiapine, which is less weight gaining, apparently.
However, I am suffering from a severe hangover effect and daytime sleepiness because of it and have no idea how I am meant to function on it given that I can barely stay awake. I see him tomorrow so can mention it then.
Rang the crisis team as arranged last night and they had no clue of Friday’s events meaning that I had to go through it all again and still they didn’t quite grasp it. Allison clearly hadn’t put it onto the system. However, the woman was perfectly pleasant even if all she suggested was to take a diazepam to calm down and keep myself in the company of people. It worked though as I still, despite all the urges, self-harmed.
I see my psych tomorrow, as an emergency appointment after Friday. I’m quite scared about seeing him as I feel embarrassed about the whole thing now and feel as if it was a waste of everyone’s time. I also see my GP but I saw him whilst I was still in a state on Friday evening so am less worried about that.
The rational part of me knows I did the right thing by heading to A&E but then the emotional part of me feels stupid and an attention seeker and a waste of time.
Sometimes I just have no clue what to think.
Ruth
