I’ve been in hospital again, over the Easter weekend. My psychiatrist decided that I was too suicidal and self-destructive to cope in the community so admitted me. He tried to get an NHS admission but surprise, surprise there were no beds so instead the NHS trust paid for me to be in the Priory! Get that!
Still feeling shit, and Allison has my dressing gown cord as in our last appointment she didn’t feel I was safe to have it, plus the Priory have my set of extra meds I was stockpiling and my last razor blade. I have stopped taking my meds as since New Year I have put on nearly 3 stone and it is medication related so I need to lose that weight.
My Mum rang Dr Mc on Friday about me as she was worried I wouldn’t be able to make it to the appointment on Wednesday so I have an emergency appointment at 8.30 tomorrow morning.
I feel awful moaning though as others’ are having a worse time.
Ruth
April 19, 2009 at 4:11 pm
Don’t worry about other people when you’re feeling so crap. Look after yourself Ruth, because it’s you that matters at the end of the day. Take care x
April 19, 2009 at 5:28 pm
As above.
Be gentle with yourself.
April 19, 2009 at 7:00 pm
Em is bang on the money. Take care of yourself. I hope the Priory are looking after you as I post this from my altrincham Priory bed. X
April 19, 2009 at 7:22 pm
Don’t think like that, there’s always someone that has a worse time, that doesn’t mean that your missery doesn’t count!
April 19, 2009 at 7:39 pm
You’re having a pretty bad time of it yourself, you can’t really compare your situation with others. Just take care of yourself.
April 19, 2009 at 8:44 pm
Take care x
April 20, 2009 at 5:21 pm
Amazed by all you’re coping with. Thinking of you…
April 21, 2009 at 1:53 pm
I think you’re very strong, and I hope you find relief soon. X
April 21, 2009 at 2:00 pm
Screw the weight gain. Take the meds. Look after yourself.
Ideally once your meds are balanced and working you’ll feel better about yourself and less horrified by extra pounds, plus more motivated to do whatever physio-approved exercise and diet will help you regain a level of lean fitness with which you’re somewhat happy.
Isn’t it plausible that your current barrel-scraping mood is in part due to being unmedicated?
Pills, mostly good things. Take ‘em.
April 26, 2009 at 3:38 pm
What Emma said was bag on. Take care, Hannah X
April 29, 2009 at 4:04 pm
Whenever we are at our worst, remember that there is always someone who is struggling more than you. I agree with the others who have commented-you need to focus on yourself. Focus on the good things in your life and be thankful for all that you have. Realize how lucky you are. Everything happens for a reason.