Depression has taken a major hold

I can bearly drag myself out of bed these days, let alone apply the killer eyeliner that I never used to go out without. I am glad I am taking my Mum along to the meeting with all the CMHT team and my GP, I need someone to take my viewpoint and put my side across in a clear and coherent manner, something I am not capable of doing at the moment.

I rang the Samaritans earlier. Mainly because I had been self-harming all morning and wanted to take all the tablets I had and sleep, and sleep, and sleep. Maybe not forever, but at least for a while and that scared me. I’m not good at talking and especially not to strangers but in the absence of any formal support then the Samaritans were great, after all, I’m still here and still awake.

Ruth

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4 Responses to “Depression has taken a major hold”

  1. exactscience Says:

    Hey.

    The Samaritans are a weird one I find, it is strange to think that really you can just talk without being judged. It is a revelation.

    I am so sorry to hear that you feel that way and happy that the Sam helped.

    It is perhaps little help but exactlyscience@gmail.com if ever you want. Stay safe.

  2. www.treatingdepressionnow.info » Depression has taken a major hold Says:

    […] Ruth added an interesting post on Depression has taken a major hold.Here’s a small excerpt:Maybe not forever, but at least for a while and that scared me. I’m not good at talking and especially not to strangers but in the absence of any formal support then the Samaritans were great, after all, I’m still here and still awake. … […]

  3. SiMO Says:

    Wow what a story, sad but honest and revealing.

    Best of luck.

    P.s Try not to make your voyeuristic readers too important – we’re not family.


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