So scared about tomorrow. Biopsy and self-harm team. Don’t think I can take much more.
Tutor just emailed me asking if I was OK because I looked very upset and anxious today and suggested referral to uni counselling – might take him up on the offer.
Also operation has been brought forwards a week, it’s in just over 2 months.
I want to pull the duvet over my head and just sleep. Took a few too many zolpidem/zopiclone last night – actually unintentionally, just kept waking up and taking another one or half. Managed to wake up this morning and get to uni but since 4pm have been absolutely whacked. All the side effects I’ve got is a bitter taste in my mouth and a very dry mouth, plus feeling a bit groggy. Got my new prescription for venlafaxine from the pharmacy – 4 boxes of 28 tablets in each. Seems quite tempting.