Things feel as if they are on a loop at the moment. The same things keep happening. The same thing keep going wrong. I keep doing and saying the same things, which are detrimental to myself and to others around me.
I need to break this cycle. I know that eating a large bar of Cadbury’s Caramel won’t do that, but it tasted good. I’ve eaten so much today. Been an absolute pig, but resorted to old tricks so the consequences shouldn’t be too severe.
I know that now would be the ideal time to ask for help. I know I am sliding down the slope towards ‘crisis point’ but my GP is on holiday (I tried to get an appointment today) and I can’t face ringing the CMHT and speaking to Allison or the duty worker. Plus, at this hour of night I’d get the crisis team. What joys!
I guess I’ll just cope alone, as per usual, and go and have a night in my pyjamas watching Coronation Street. Classy life I lead, isn’t it?