Finding it very hard to keep my head above water at the moment.
Ended up in A&E again yesterday having self-harmed.
Required many, many sutures.
Crisis Team refused to come out and see me saying I was already on their caseload and to contact my CPN.
Allison is away on holiday next week.
Been closer to suicide today than I have in a long while.
Just want a magic wand to be waved.
Edit: Rang Crisis Team, as it details in my care plan, to be met with a suggestion to have a hot bath. When I said I couldn’t due to number of sutures then was told to listen to some relaxing music. I detailed what had happened today and the person on the end of the phone just said “can you not wait until Monday to contact the CMHT?”, I said that I felt I needed support now and they said “well I don’t see what you think we can do for you”. Helpful, to say the least.