Overnight Leave: An Absolute Godsend After 7 Weeks Of Cabin Fever

I’ve finally on overnight leave which considering I’ve been in hospital for 7 weeks seems a long time. My consulltant thinks I have borderline traits but don’t fulfil the full criteria for BPD. I am now officially Bipolar II, borderline traits and Eating Disorder NOS (Not Otherwise Specified).

Some of the drugs have been changed. The duloxetine has been doubled, the lamotrigine has been increased, as has the diazepam. I’ve back on zopiclone and have just started taken trazodone as a sedative add-on anti-depressant after a fortnight on mirtzapine which increased my appetite so much that I was about to refuse taking it.

I am now on a bit of a hypomanic phase which my parents think is me recovering but my psych and all the therapists realise is hypomania. My one-to-one therapist and I aren’t particularly clicking but I’ve mentioned it to my psych and the head of therapy services and I have to talk to her next time I see her (tomorrow afternoon) and talk it through with her and if we can’t sort it out then I’ll change therapists.

I’ve taken up badminton again, which is great fun but am so pissed off with the NHS. My operation to remove the tumour was scheduled for Tuesday just gone but because of the ‘bad weather’ they cancelled it and it has yet to be rescheduled. I was OK with this until I read the news about Jade Goody and now every time I cough I’m convinced it’s spread to my lungs, particularly as I’ve taking up smoking again since being in hospital.

Don’t know how much longer I’ll be in but I’ll try and keep this blog going as best as I can.



15 Responses to “Overnight Leave: An Absolute Godsend After 7 Weeks Of Cabin Fever”

  1. Pole to Polar: The Secret Life of a Manic Depressive Says:

    Ah, it’s great to hear from you! Glad you seem a bit better. Welcome to the bipolar club, we have a secret handshake.

  2. Jaime Dugan Says:

    I enjoyed your post. Just wanted anyone reading this that is struggling to check out this ministry:


    Mercy Ministries was founded by Nancy Alcorn in 1983. It is a non-profit residential counseling program that exists to transform the lives of young women between the ages of 13-28 who face life-controlling issues. The program is free of charge, which is pretty amazing. I want to spread the awareness about Mercy because these problems are all too real in today’s society!

    Take Care!

  3. Sara Says:

    I’m glad you’re back posting…was waiting to hear.

  4. eccedentesiast Says:

    Welcome back lovely. Glad to hear you’re sounding at least a little better thsn before you went in. Sorry about the NHS fart arsing about though. Take care x

  5. exactscience Says:

    Glad you are back posting.
    As Seaneen says there is a handshake…

  6. Alison Says:

    Glad to see a post from you Ruth, please take care of yourself x

  7. Lola Snow Says:

    You’ve been missed Ruth, glad to hear you’ve got support going on.

    Lola x

  8. L Says:

    Great to hear from you. xx

  9. Hannah Says:

    Good to see you back, take care

  10. Chouette Says:

    Glad to see you’re back, enjoy the badminton x

  11. Ruby Tuesday Says:

    hello Ruth, it’s lovely to see you back again. xx

  12. dumpedbyahallucination Says:

    Hello – I’m also happy you updated. I know I haven’t commented for a while but I still read every time you post, and it’s good to know something positive has taken place.

    Suzy x

  13. intothesystem Says:

    It’s so good to hear from you and to hear you have been given a night off. I hope the time out is helping and glad they are looking after you. Please take care x

  14. Mental Patient Says:

    Good to hear from you. Take care

  15. Karita Says:

    Hi, I’ve been lurking for aaaaages, thought it was time to say hello. It’s good to see this post. Take care.

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