Creature Comforts: Back Home In My Own Surroundings

I am finally back at home after pleading with Dr Mc that I was safe to be discharged today and didn’t need to be kept in over the weekend. I was going to be discharged earlier this week but after an overnight leave, and ignoring everyone’s advice about not driving whilst in this state, I drove my car and crashed it. Luckily I didn’t cause anyone or anything else any damage, as apparently my insurance is invalidated as I am driving whilst having a medical condition (mania) that I have not informed the DVLA about. If I do inform the DVLA, then my licence will be revoked and not reissued for eithe r3 or 6 months, depending on when I am stable, and then it will probably be assessed annually. Luckily no one has informed the DVLA, and as my car isn’t exactly in a good state at the moment, I won’t be driving for a while.

The valproate has been increased again, but although it has taken the top edge off my mood it hasn’t capped it like everyone had hoped it would. My thoughts are now racing around my head at about 200mph rather than 500mph, I can sit in a chair and only move my feet and hands, rather than jiggling my whole body around. It is little differences like that which have enabled me to be discharged though, so I guess I should be grateful.

This post isn’t going to make any sense, I can’t keep my thought process on writing it for long enough. I guess the basics are that I’m home, I’m now classed as hypomanic, I crashed my car, I self-harmed and ended up in A&E again on Saturday, I have made myself turn over a new leaf and be accepting and welcoming of the help the Priory are giving me as I do not know how much longer my parents can fund it, I see Allison on Monday and Dr Mc again on Tuesday and I only have to keep myself on the straight and narrow for the next couple of days.



5 Responses to “Creature Comforts: Back Home In My Own Surroundings”

  1. intothesystem Says:

    I’m glad that you are back home and things have calmed down a little, even if you are still hypomanic.

    Sorry to hear about the car incident! Not good. I’m in a similar position with the DVLA due to the depression/bipolar and have so far not driven anywhere recently, but was considering starting to drive again. The only thing I’m worried about is if anything happens because I don’t want to notify the DVLA and lose my license.

    I am glad you are welcoming the help from The Priory. I think when you know funding may be taken away it makes you realise what you will miss out on when it is. Mine runs out on 14th July and I’m dreading the day when I’m stuck with just the NHS. Will you be going back for day care?

  2. ScienceGirl Says:

    Sorry to hear about your car. I always wanted to drive, but, I really don’t trust myself.

    I’m glad your back home though. I’m glad your accepting the help from the priory too, I don’t think I am ever going to get better with just the NHS. But oh well…

  3. Alison Says:

    I’m jealous I want to be discharged… I want to come home, I want to sleep in my own bed…

    Ruth, hope things continue to go well for… good luck x

  4. Pole to Polar: The Secret Life of a Manic Depressive Says:

    Haven’t you got the crisis team with you?

  5. eccedentesiast Says:

    Hey Ruth…you okay? xxx

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